Joan of Arcadia and suffering
I was watching an old “Joan of Arcadia” episode, and there was one scene with one guy I really identified with. The main character’s mother was trying to deal with her son having become a paraplegic, and enough time had passed that she had gone from emotional shock to trying to work through all the emotional and spiritual aspects of this change in their lives. A priest in a parking lot had one of those red Salvation Army buckets and was collecting for the poor. She dropped some change in and walked away, then stopped, came back, and began to demand all kinds of answers. Since he had the collar on, he obviously had a handle on the whole God-thing. So she assaulted him with all these questions that the greatest theologians haven’t been able to adequately answer. “If God is a father, why doesn’t He make everything better like fathers are supposed to do? Explain to me the whole suffering thing.” And so on. And that poor young man under the onslaught of all these impossible questions completely lost his brain. He was supposed to have all the answers because he was a priest, and he’d probably even written neat theological essays in seminary on the very subject, but in the suddenness of what had to seem like an attack, his head probably emptied of all those excellent words, and he could only stare dumbly at her and stammer weakly that he’d pray for her.
I completely identified with the poor man, as a seminary student myself who will likely be asked to answer these questions. I would lose all my clever answers, too. It’s one thing, like C.S. Lewis, to know many things intellectually and another to go through it yourself and have your assumptions tested.
I would hope that, given the opportunity to get over my temporary brainlessness, I would be able to convey something of meaning across. Even if it was only the difficult-to-accept truth that at times God is incomprehensible. He does not conform Himself to our specifications. I would like to be able to reassure the person that despite how unsatisfactory that sounds, He truly is good and loving and desires to bring peace even when He doesn’t change the situation. It’s interesting how often our demands for answers are demands for God to be what we want Him to be. We say, a loving God should fix all the world’s problems. But since He is God and He is loving and He hasn’t fixed all the world’s problems, then probably a loving God shouldn’t fix all the world’s problems. A good father shouldn’t give his child everything she wants, despite her unhappiness at not getting it. If our loving God doesn’t do what we want, does it mean we finite, small-minded, created beings are right and the infinite, omniscient, all-powerful Creator is wrong? I don’t think so.
Now the trick is to actually remember and understand this stuff when I’m slapped across the head with something catastrophic. Like C.S. Lewis.
“It’s a perfect system, Joan.” The “God” character says that all the time on “Joan of Arcadia.” I like it a lot. It points out the rather obvious but always confusing, seeming contradiction in life. God’s created a perfect system, but the world is royally messed up. The world is royally messed up…how can it be a perfect system? That’s the beauty of it: His system continues to work despite the world. There is no Plan B—His system works well whether in a perfect world or in a messed-up one. We just have often lost the ability to see the goodness and perfection because we're blinded by the evil and pain.
I completely identified with the poor man, as a seminary student myself who will likely be asked to answer these questions. I would lose all my clever answers, too. It’s one thing, like C.S. Lewis, to know many things intellectually and another to go through it yourself and have your assumptions tested.
I would hope that, given the opportunity to get over my temporary brainlessness, I would be able to convey something of meaning across. Even if it was only the difficult-to-accept truth that at times God is incomprehensible. He does not conform Himself to our specifications. I would like to be able to reassure the person that despite how unsatisfactory that sounds, He truly is good and loving and desires to bring peace even when He doesn’t change the situation. It’s interesting how often our demands for answers are demands for God to be what we want Him to be. We say, a loving God should fix all the world’s problems. But since He is God and He is loving and He hasn’t fixed all the world’s problems, then probably a loving God shouldn’t fix all the world’s problems. A good father shouldn’t give his child everything she wants, despite her unhappiness at not getting it. If our loving God doesn’t do what we want, does it mean we finite, small-minded, created beings are right and the infinite, omniscient, all-powerful Creator is wrong? I don’t think so.
Now the trick is to actually remember and understand this stuff when I’m slapped across the head with something catastrophic. Like C.S. Lewis.
“It’s a perfect system, Joan.” The “God” character says that all the time on “Joan of Arcadia.” I like it a lot. It points out the rather obvious but always confusing, seeming contradiction in life. God’s created a perfect system, but the world is royally messed up. The world is royally messed up…how can it be a perfect system? That’s the beauty of it: His system continues to work despite the world. There is no Plan B—His system works well whether in a perfect world or in a messed-up one. We just have often lost the ability to see the goodness and perfection because we're blinded by the evil and pain.
2 Comments:
We question God because we forget that He, being holy as you described the day before, is more than we can understand. Thus, He sees and understands the reason for suffering, that we may not see until we are with Him.
And another thought is this: Americans worship material things AND not having trouble. To the American mindset, suffering is almost always bad and for no reason. Thus we have euthanasia so we do not have to suffer 'needless' pain if we are old or are 'going to die anyway' (doy, we're all going to die!) abortion so a woman/couple doesn't/don't have to inconvenience her/their lifestyle, and a host of other things which make life easier.
We cannot imagine living without running water, HOT water, flushing toilets, health insurance, electricity, dental care, having perfect teeth, having access to grocery stores, air travel, cars, and many other things that many other people do not take for granted, and that were not common until less than 100 years ago.
We have so much and are so blessed, and we take it for granted. We think that God's system is not perfect because we confuse what God is doing with what we see around us.
I would rather God would let me suffer and continue His work in me than have my way.
I have just realized that even though I've questioned God A LOT the last few years and have been afraid of missing His will in my life, somehow, I've managed to marry the most wonderful man and how even when I didn't realise what God was doing and was terrified of even having a relationship, God has shown me more of His love than I can imagine. Even when I didn't see what He was doing and didn't understand, God was working in my life to bless me more than I ever thought possible!
Clarification: I have long pondered what marriage would be like, how good it would be what it would be like, and it is so much MORE than I ever dreamed. So it makes me a little excited to think about how I've thought of what Heaven would be like and how much more it will be than my little ol' finite mind can dream of!
Christy - thank you for creating this blog. It is nice to be able to have these kinds of conversations and help my lazy brain to think a little deeper!
Alyse - Wow that is so good and so true. God is beyond anything we can imagine and when we try to understand with our finite minds the infinate plan He has for us it only leaves us fretting about stupic and unimportant things. I have been doing that the last couple of days. Thank you because reading your reply today helped snap me out of it and strengthened my trust in God again :) God is good.
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